When I first started out on my journey,
I was so disconnected from my intuition that I constantly sought out external validation. I didn’t even really know what intuition was! I was so indecisive, sometimes not knowing what to do.
Over the years I’ve worked hard at healing my traumas and unlearning that which was in the way of connecting with my inner wisdom.
As human beings, we naturally get conditioned to be a certain way through learning, our experiences, and our environments. Over the years, I learned different practices of connecting to my intuition that I use throughout my life and I get to share those in my practice.
In 2008, when I was 26, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis — an autoimmune dis-ease of the thyroid. They say it’s because my thyroid attacks itself and doesn’t produce enough natural hormones. The doctor put me on a daily pill “for the rest of my life” and that was that. While this medicine worked for me, which is not always the case with others, it suppressed almost all of my symptoms, so what did I do about it? Absolutely nothing!
My body was screaming for me to change my lifestyle… but I ignored it and continued to live the next 10 years the exciting and busy city lifestyle… traveling (35+ countries), going to concerts, playing sports, going to the beach, drinking, partying, working, eating out — all fun yet exhausting and anxious.
In the meantime, I was working way too hard (and being way too hard on myself), busy doing too much, feeling lonely, having heartbreak after heartbreak, and stuck on the hamster wheel of life living in the safety of having a 9-5 job with a paycheck and health insurance. I truly loved being a graphic designer and even landed a dream job working at the High Line in NYC.
I was a Russian-Jew immigrant working hard to succeed. I could’ve kept going but life had something else in store for me.
After a series of failed relationships, in 2018 I had a spiritual awakening and started to journey inward.
I realized that “I” was the common denominator in my relationships not working out and I thought that there was something deeply wrong with me. So I wanted to find out what that was.
This lead me to what some may call my “dark night of the soul” and then on a path to self-discovery and transformation.
I grew up Jewish, but I wasn’t religious. I stopped believing in God when I was 13. I believed in science — my parents were chemists after all — and after doing mushrooms at 17, I had this sense that nature was something I could believe in, although I didn’t fully know what that meant.
I thought we were born into this mundane physical world, did our thing, and when we died our bodies just went back to the earth. There was no soul involved.
I began meditating, healing my heart with crystals which led me to a shamanic reiki practitioner that changed my world. She saw me beyond what I knew myself to be, a “pure soul” she called me.
This began my path of seeking and healing. I began to study anything and everything spirituality — from crystals to angels to Akashic Records to astrology to family constellations to human design, the list keeps going.
Eventually, I studied shamanism through two teachers and began sitting with Ayahuasca.
Once spirituality entered my life, my entire perspective shifted and I discovered the world is way more magical than I could have ever imagined.
As I continued to study different modalities to heal and better understand myself, over the years I gained so much valuable wisdom that I always felt I would, in the end, share with others.
Through my vast exploration of the known and the unknown, I discovered that I want to help guide others to connect closer to their body and soul, discover their authentic selves (as I did), and find their unique soul purpose and mission on this beautiful Earth.
My outdoor casita in Pachamama, Costa Rica where I lived for 6 months in 2020.
In January of 2020, I quit my job and took a leap of faith by going to live in a conscious community in Costa Rica called Pachamama to do a work exchange.
I lived in an open-air casita in the middle of the jungle and worked at the village shop twenty hours a week. The rest of the time I got to be around other like-minded people, doing deep healing workshops and seeing what it’s like to live in a thriving conscious community (a dream that I and so many others have.)
While the world began to break down in March of 2020 due to COVID, I was started a 200-hour Hatha Yoga & Qi Gong certification with Adya & Velan and going inward. I could not have imagined a better place to ride out that time period. My 3-month trip to Costa Rica turned into 10 months.
This time and space, away from the computer, gave me a chance to discover that what I really wanted to do, was become a coach. Since I was also on a journey of healing my autoimmune disease, I signed up for the amazing Institute for Integrative Nutrition (IIN) and became certified as an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach.
Through my deep healing work and things like the yoga training, learning about my astrology, IIN, and through training and developing with Landmark (the Forum is still one of the most powerful 3-day weekend transformational programs I know), I began to discover my leadership.
I’m a Leo Rising, Capricorn Sun, and Aries Moon. My soul came here to be a leader and I had no idea because through my traumas I was hiding and playing it small.
I started holding moon circles and workshops.
Eventually, I came back to Brooklyn and while I was having a hard time landing back to pandemic city life, I felt a calling to learn embodiment and very quickly discovered the Focalizing Practitioner Course which tied a lot of loose ends together for me and taught me to trust in my intuition.
I began to live a more embodied life.
In April 2021 I was introduced to Keith’s Cacao while in Colombia and it changed my life! I received major heart healing which you can read about here.
Eventually, nature was calling me again and after almost 20 years it was finally time for me to pack my bags and leave NYC. I put all my stuff into storage, bought a car, and planned to travel around the country starting with Upstate New York.
I lived in a few beautiful homes up there… but when it was time to move on to the rest of the country I began to hit roadblocks.
I listened and stayed in the New York/New Jersey area.
After not even a year of drinking Cacao, I got the call from the Spirit of Cacao to share her in ceremonies with others. I signed up for the Keith’s Cacao Practitioner Training to learn all I could about Cacao and have been holding Cacao ceremonies ever since.
I then met my partner Tiger, with whom I continue to do ceremonies with. In 2023 we moved in together to the Hudson Valley where we are still landing and have the intention of building community. We recently launched Embodied Psychedelic Collective and are beginning to hold Family Constellation Workshops.
I believe our bodies are trying to teach and tell us something. Through my journey of healing Hoshimoto’s, I completely transformed myself, became a health coach, changed my diet, healed my gut, did cleanses and detoxes (mercury detox, mold detox), created a healthy lifestyle — and most importantly I began to slow down. Yet my healing journey continues and has now led me to the world of frequencies, where I am currently working with Healy, a frequency device that helps on the path to harmony and balance. Learn more about that here. Onwards and upwards!
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